Why brains?

Im just going to write something. I didnt know right. Maybe this is just another way to make my bombs, I mean my dirty mind or just my burning head explode.
But well, it probably works. And now! Im gonna start to write it down...

This begins with an object that I want to achieve, which I like, even that I hate.
I always love to think about something great, making a good scenario between I and my outreach on my fuckin brains. Sometimes I just loose control and just forget about the real life and reality. It could be say that i was fell in love with my own fantasy and everything on it.
I dont know, I just cant stop and handle it. I almost doin this all the time and i dont even know too if its bring me to a good or a bad effects.

Sometimes I think I probably should go to psychiatrist. Time is killin me. I keep growin up. And I just cant...
Sometimes I even confused the way of what should I choose. Theres so many people who gave me an advice, but more are not able to guide. Im so sick...