SIMPLY WORKS

Its funny how happiness works.
'Cause basically, happiness just working when you want it to.
So, it depends on your soul and minds.

And you know what makes me happy?
They actually just a bunch of a little things in life you don't realize you actually loved, and have a big impact to your moods and mindset or your perspective/point view.
And some kind of happiness that anyone can't take from you.

Like how I enjoy a movie, my favorite movie. The actor, the stories, the scene, the cinematography that recorded inside my head. And when I'm happy watching it, everything is on repeat in my head. Its Clear! And when I remember it somehow, it can simply makes me smile or being amazed.
Yeah, it's happiness.

Like how I listen to music. The beats, the melody, the lyrics, it can reminds me of something.
It can be a sad memory, a happy memory, feeling glad, pleased, great, and automaticaly increasing my moods. Yeah, and thats how I enjoyed the music. I can keep it inside my head, my soul, and no one can ever stole it. Its make me feel alive, and It's a happiness.

Me and A.M

Silly thoughts of awkward conversation inside my head

It is normally happen to most of the wondering head out there sometimes, portray about something they like and do make their own scenario inside their head peacefully, hoping something good would happen as much as their thoughts could possibly imagine. Even though it's slightly difficult nor it is very difficult to be true. 

Sebuah ide

Ini sangat bodoh mengingat caraku melukiskan sesuatu tentang seseorang yang ku pikir sangat berlebihan namun aku tidak pernah merasa kenyang dengan ide itu sendiri. Seperti kecanduan?
Tetapi anehnya adalah, terkadang diriku  merasa aneh,  takut, gelisah,  juga senang menyatu menjadi satu setiap kali aku memikirkan tentang ide itu.
Aku tidak berfikir ide ini adalah cinta.
Yang jelas ini sangat aneh.
Apa yang bisa mendeskripsikan sesuatu seperti halnya diriku takut untuk berbicara kepada orang tersebut namun desakan hati memang tidak bisa dipungkiri, bahwa aku ingin?
Disisi lain, aku tidak ingin berbicara dengannya sekalipun karna aku takut menyesali apa yang sudah aku katakan?

Hati bergejolak. Terkadang aku berfikir ide ini tidak seharusnya ada.
Apa daya, aku memang tertarik kepadanya.
Itu tidak bisa dituntaskan.
Aku meyakinkan diriku ini bukan cinta. Bukan, ini bukan tentang ide itu.
Tetapi apa? 

Aku masih mencari tahu.

Terus aku memikirkan tentang seseorang itu, dan ide yang menyertainya.
Aku kagum...

Ternyata aku kagum!
Semua ide ini adalah kekaguman terhadap orang itu!
Bagaimana ide kekaguman ini adalah hal yang tepat dalam mendeskripsikan hal-hal yang aku rasakan?
Karna jika ini hanya ide tentang kekaguman saja, mengapa terlalu banyak percakapan dalam lukisan yang aku buat dalam pikiran?
Ada sedikit kekhawatiran jika orang itu membenci diriku, tidak menyukaiku, dan tidak menganggapku.
Ini harapan...

Ternyata aku menyimpan sebuah harapan terhadapnya!
Lalu apa yang bisa mendeskripsikan sesuatu seperti ini?

Ide ini seharusnya tidak ada.
Ini sangat kompleks, tapi aku sangat menyukai segala hal tentang ide ini.

A letter to hate

I can make my own world.

Who are you and who am I?
You are you, and so do I.

People hates,
People loves,

I can tell you the truth,
that peoples hate you.

We are not diffrent at all,
It just me that wasn't tall.

I just can keep myself down,
to remind me I'm on the ground.

You can spread the world who you are,
but you can't tell us who we are.

If words

Expect something good to happen.

New Years

It's a new year.
Memories be memories.
Let's face the other years.
It's a new year.
Let's push ourselves into beyond.
And find out what's going on.
It's a new year.
I learn and I learned.
Everything seems to be yearned.
It's a new year.
It's a whole new chances.
Don't threw it like its ashes.
It's a new year.
Use your time.
Like u never gonna make in time.

Constant battle

I walked along the way
Spending my time alone
And suddenly I remember,
Remember you.

And all the memories
Who faded,
Now back to being snappy
When you're disappear.

And actually I,
I don't like the memories that come as this.
Because, tears would be too easy to fall.

Again, and again
I denied my promise
For this.

A war
Oh, a war
Oh, a war

Between should be remember
Or forgetting.
I love you
I love you

A war
This is a constant battle,
Don't you understand darling?
That I love you.

Shining Night

I walked alone
To got home

I uphold my head
To see what's going up there

I see it shining
Looks like a Cristal clear

The sky is dreaming
I'll take the silver lining

Like theres nothings dry
Like theres always fine

I found its alright tonight
Feelings are too fine tonight 

Look at the stars
Look at the moon

They're gazing
Eyes be mesmerizing 

I have a long night
A night to be longed 

Nah! She's Good!!!

At the night she saw him on the social media,
she just wondering,
"What if I text him and ask him about something that I curious at a few days ago..."
so she just did.

Drama.

In odd moments, people just need drama in their life.
to feel how to feel.
to see what to see.
to say what to say.

life is getting dry.
Need something to fill the gap.
Although eventually it only feel peculiar.
It's okay, somewhile we need exaggeration.
The excessive which is not excessive.
Life needs something that is albeit not substantial and necessary sometimes.

And sometimes people just cannot feel something.
Because they're too busy.
Busy with their passiveness.
Doing nothing.
People became monotonous.
Emotions die.
Became a dead Soul.

Mereka bersinar

Aku hanya tertarik
melihat mataku
ketika mereka memandangmu
dan tenggelam di dalamnya
mencari sesuatu
entah apa
tak beralasan

hanya terdiam
memperhatikan

mataku bersinar
bukan seperti laser
tapi mereka bercahaya
seperti pantulan sinar
matahari di sungai

mereka rindu
letih sendu
menginginkanmu

Insanity or a joke?

I'm capturing my self
as a happy imaginary child
who is always live in her own fantasy
and sunk...
there's no way out
Immersed in the beauty of fantasy scenarios of live
which probably wouldn't happen

I'm capturing my self
as a gorgeous model
who is always act like a pro
but just in the front on the mirror
just swank, feel like 10 feet tall from the ground...
but then I realized, I'm just 5 feet tall
what am I kidding?

I'm capturing my self
as a duff
I am my only duff
I am a duff of my self

look, I am a best friend of my self
I love talking to my self
looking into the mirror doing a crazy things
and laughs...
well okay, my mirror is my 2nd best friend.
like "hey look! who's that pretty lil lady standing in front of you? yeah it's you!"
I am me who only one can tell........
I even tell my self to listen carefully.

This is insane
how I look at myself

My life is just about expecting things,
wondering whats going on next,
what a bad thing can happen and mostly joke.
yes. a joke.

My August routine

I woke up at 10 pm

Sleep at 10 am

Doing nothing

Just watching the same movies

Enjoying my free time

But not that enjoying much

I sleep again while I can

I never leave the bed

I eat what I should eat

Starving every 10 minutes

I’m enjoying my room

Enjoying the music

Playing the same chord guitar

Playing the same favorite song

I have much free time

I’m off duty

Moms mad at me

I came home late

Because I’m watching a gigs with my friend by yesterday

She left me a letter while I’m taking a bath at 1.30 am

“I don’t care anymore” she said

“you’re free now” she said

She ignores me

She act like I doesn’t exist

Oh, what a great day

I have no text

I have no credits

I have no money either

Nor a boyfriend

Oh, such a random thoughts on my head

Him.

That motherf*cker.

what a tool..

the august almost over

its almost over

The "don't know" person

Somehow I just feel torn apart. What they're searching for in this cruel world?
I mean, that fancy things? a luxury life? for being famous?
I didn't see anything. I can't get enough for any explanation.
what do you know about this world?
Because I know nothing.
And I'm going to ask you...
What are you searching for in this life?
What you going to do?
What can you give?
What you can do?
What can you teach and share with?
Do your step is certain?
Who do you love?
I'm so sorry for being so serious.
I don't know why there's is so many question, but I think yeah... this is the question of life.
I do understand somehow, but more don't. I don't know what I'm going to do, I don't even understand what I can't understand. I don't get my mind. I can't reach anything... probably.
hahaha I feel so numb and dumb. I think I lost myself.
I don't even know what love is, because too many tears have had to fall and I'm so tired of it all. I don't wanna talk that much about love. Because yeah... I know nothing. So much people come and leave, and I'm not surprised. I'm more surprise when they stay.
I feel the chaos. More regard but not speak.
Whether this turmoil? but I don't think I'm going try to deny, I better learn to accept that all.
hahaha this is just a part of my life.
I do not know, if I'm really distressed? or I am who already making it the distressed? it's so funny.
I can't wait when I realized about Life or Love is...
Time will tell me about anything.
Maybe I am who is trying to find out what the real meaning of life. And looking toward life that has not been fixed. I realized that I'm just 19th, OMG.
Oh yeah, but age doesn't matter. They're just a row of numerical values. But, oh yeah I'm still highly young, maybe God will give me a chance and show me something, feel, and gives me a sense of life. Who's role within it? Surely have been written in the line of my destiny. Including my soul mate.
ooohhhh, C'mon!Time for REVOLUTIONS.
Be brave! Be happy! Leave the past! This is the Cheerful day! Yeayyyy time to meet a new people!

Monochrome

It just turning black and white.

All I saw into a limited space viewpoint.

I wish I could be that one.

Cheerful, jovial, and bright.

I don't know whats happening over here.

You know whats the meaning all of this things?

Revolutions?

Indications?

I became monochrome.

Monotonous from left to right.

It's all black and white inside.

bloody hell! it's not feels right.

Why brains?

Im just going to write something. I didnt know right. Maybe this is just another way to make my bombs, I mean my dirty mind or just my burning head explode.
But well, it probably works. And now! Im gonna start to write it down...

This begins with an object that I want to achieve, which I like, even that I hate.
I always love to think about something great, making a good scenario between I and my outreach on my fuckin brains. Sometimes I just loose control and just forget about the real life and reality. It could be say that i was fell in love with my own fantasy and everything on it.
I dont know, I just cant stop and handle it. I almost doin this all the time and i dont even know too if its bring me to a good or a bad effects.

Sometimes I think I probably should go to psychiatrist. Time is killin me. I keep growin up. And I just cant...
Sometimes I even confused the way of what should I choose. Theres so many people who gave me an advice, but more are not able to guide. Im so sick...

PERTAMA SETELAH SEBELUMNYA

Hallo semuanya :)

Ini post pertama aku setelah sebelumnya aku pernah posting sesuatu yang gak penting dan aku hapus.
makanya aku buat judul post ini PERTAMA SETELAH SEBELUMNYA.
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Oh iya, kan sebelumnya aku pernah posting yang gak penting, mungkin sekarang bakal lebih bermanfaat. Mungkin...

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