Shining Night

I walked alone
To got home

I uphold my head
To see what's going up there

I see it shining
Looks like a Cristal clear

The sky is dreaming
I'll take the silver lining

Like theres nothings dry
Like theres always fine

I found its alright tonight
Feelings are too fine tonight 

Look at the stars
Look at the moon

They're gazing
Eyes be mesmerizing 

I have a long night
A night to be longed 

Nah! She's Good!!!

At the night she saw him on the social media,
she just wondering,
"What if I text him and ask him about something that I curious at a few days ago..."
so she just did.

Drama.

In odd moments, people just need drama in their life.
to feel how to feel.
to see what to see.
to say what to say.

life is getting dry.
Need something to fill the gap.
Although eventually it only feel peculiar.
It's okay, somewhile we need exaggeration.
The excessive which is not excessive.
Life needs something that is albeit not substantial and necessary sometimes.

And sometimes people just cannot feel something.
Because they're too busy.
Busy with their passiveness.
Doing nothing.
People became monotonous.
Emotions die.
Became a dead Soul.

Mereka bersinar

Aku hanya tertarik
melihat mataku
ketika mereka memandangmu
dan tenggelam di dalamnya
mencari sesuatu
entah apa
tak beralasan

hanya terdiam
memperhatikan

mataku bersinar
bukan seperti laser
tapi mereka bercahaya
seperti pantulan sinar
matahari di sungai

mereka rindu
letih sendu
menginginkanmu

Insanity or a joke?

I'm capturing my self
as a happy imaginary child
who is always live in her own fantasy
and sunk...
there's no way out
Immersed in the beauty of fantasy scenarios of live
which probably wouldn't happen

I'm capturing my self
as a gorgeous model
who is always act like a pro
but just in the front on the mirror
just swank, feel like 10 feet tall from the ground...
but then I realized, I'm just 5 feet tall
what am I kidding?

I'm capturing my self
as a duff
I am my only duff
I am a duff of my self

look, I am a best friend of my self
I love talking to my self
looking into the mirror doing a crazy things
and laughs...
well okay, my mirror is my 2nd best friend.
like "hey look! who's that pretty lil lady standing in front of you? yeah it's you!"
I am me who only one can tell........
I even tell my self to listen carefully.

This is insane
how I look at myself

My life is just about expecting things,
wondering whats going on next,
what a bad thing can happen and mostly joke.
yes. a joke.

My August routine

I woke up at 10 pm

Sleep at 10 am

Doing nothing

Just watching the same movies

Enjoying my free time

But not that enjoying much

I sleep again while I can

I never leave the bed

I eat what I should eat

Starving every 10 minutes

I’m enjoying my room

Enjoying the music

Playing the same chord guitar

Playing the same favorite song

I have much free time

I’m off duty

Moms mad at me

I came home late

Because I’m watching a gigs with my friend by yesterday

She left me a letter while I’m taking a bath at 1.30 am

“I don’t care anymore” she said

“you’re free now” she said

She ignores me

She act like I doesn’t exist

Oh, what a great day

I have no text

I have no credits

I have no money either

Nor a boyfriend

Oh, such a random thoughts on my head

Him.

That motherf*cker.

what a tool..

the august almost over

its almost over

RELAX...

Hey! it's me again!

It's been along time...
how are you people? hope you all have a good time!

It's nice to start some positively things on the first week of month. Hello June!

So yeah... I'm going to share the happiness. Anything that can make you happy, I don't know but I'm trying, and I think it's going work for me. 

I was being personally relaxed lately, even arguably very relaxed.

Believe it or not, my day is getting better day by day. Maybe 'cause my heart and mind more wide open and feel what is the meaning of happiness itself, or am I just falling in love? haha I don't know.

I love myself, I believe in myself.

Who says I didn't  have the establishment? everything's took a time.

There was a time when you are on the verge of udder and I realized if it is indeed a very stupid thing. But I'm proud to have it done :)

And now! only how to make people around me also happy if I was around them.

I'm sorry if my blogs more like my diary hahaha

I'm always doing something with a relaxed and it makes me happy.

Not everything I respond too deep, more to learn with a relaxed yet very trace and meaningful. 

I understand myself slowly, slowly forgive mistakes and errors. 

Give more space to the heart and peace of mind.

So, now let's share the happiness, give yourself time to think and relaxed. Like you can always hear what you likes in music, then sing it! You can draw if it makes you happy. then show it! 

be proud of yourself :)

so heres my old sketch of Curren caples! 

XOXO! :*

I literally drew this on windows paint hahaha

Sweet world!

She's happy cause she love banana!

Think that I'm fabulous with cigar!

You know me so well............ hahahaha

The "don't know" person

Somehow I just feel torn apart. What they're searching for in this cruel world?
I mean, that fancy things? a luxury life? for being famous?
I didn't see anything. I can't get enough for any explanation.
what do you know about this world?
Because I know nothing.
And I'm going to ask you...
What are you searching for in this life?
What you going to do?
What can you give?
What you can do?
What can you teach and share with?
Do your step is certain?
Who do you love?
I'm so sorry for being so serious.
I don't know why there's is so many question, but I think yeah... this is the question of life.
I do understand somehow, but more don't. I don't know what I'm going to do, I don't even understand what I can't understand. I don't get my mind. I can't reach anything... probably.
hahaha I feel so numb and dumb. I think I lost myself.
I don't even know what love is, because too many tears have had to fall and I'm so tired of it all. I don't wanna talk that much about love. Because yeah... I know nothing. So much people come and leave, and I'm not surprised. I'm more surprise when they stay.
I feel the chaos. More regard but not speak.
Whether this turmoil? but I don't think I'm going try to deny, I better learn to accept that all.
hahaha this is just a part of my life.
I do not know, if I'm really distressed? or I am who already making it the distressed? it's so funny.
I can't wait when I realized about Life or Love is...
Time will tell me about anything.
Maybe I am who is trying to find out what the real meaning of life. And looking toward life that has not been fixed. I realized that I'm just 19th, OMG.
Oh yeah, but age doesn't matter. They're just a row of numerical values. But, oh yeah I'm still highly young, maybe God will give me a chance and show me something, feel, and gives me a sense of life. Who's role within it? Surely have been written in the line of my destiny. Including my soul mate.
ooohhhh, C'mon!Time for REVOLUTIONS.
Be brave! Be happy! Leave the past! This is the Cheerful day! Yeayyyy time to meet a new people!