The "don't know" person

Somehow I just feel torn apart. What they're searching for in this cruel world?
I mean, that fancy things? a luxury life? for being famous?
I didn't see anything. I can't get enough for any explanation.
what do you know about this world?
Because I know nothing.
And I'm going to ask you...
What are you searching for in this life?
What you going to do?
What can you give?
What you can do?
What can you teach and share with?
Do your step is certain?
Who do you love?
I'm so sorry for being so serious.
I don't know why there's is so many question, but I think yeah... this is the question of life.
I do understand somehow, but more don't. I don't know what I'm going to do, I don't even understand what I can't understand. I don't get my mind. I can't reach anything... probably.
hahaha I feel so numb and dumb. I think I lost myself.
I don't even know what love is, because too many tears have had to fall and I'm so tired of it all. I don't wanna talk that much about love. Because yeah... I know nothing. So much people come and leave, and I'm not surprised. I'm more surprise when they stay.
I feel the chaos. More regard but not speak.
Whether this turmoil? but I don't think I'm going try to deny, I better learn to accept that all.
hahaha this is just a part of my life.
I do not know, if I'm really distressed? or I am who already making it the distressed? it's so funny.
I can't wait when I realized about Life or Love is...
Time will tell me about anything.
Maybe I am who is trying to find out what the real meaning of life. And looking toward life that has not been fixed. I realized that I'm just 19th, OMG.
Oh yeah, but age doesn't matter. They're just a row of numerical values. But, oh yeah I'm still highly young, maybe God will give me a chance and show me something, feel, and gives me a sense of life. Who's role within it? Surely have been written in the line of my destiny. Including my soul mate.
ooohhhh, C'mon!Time for REVOLUTIONS.
Be brave! Be happy! Leave the past! This is the Cheerful day! Yeayyyy time to meet a new people!